310805 *pre-teachers' dae*

todae.. went sch fer teachers' dae celebration.. Had mass dance.. hmm.. it wusnt reali nice lah.. cuz alot of ppl duno the steps.. haiz.. hmm.. well.. the celebration wus nice.. kinda similar to bp culture.. muz b becuz of celest.. haha.. niceenice.. esp the performance by shaowei n edi.. so NICE!! haha..

after everything, bpians gathered n we rushed back to bP.. it wus pretty empty.. heheh.. saw mr chiam.. he called me "XIAOHEI"!! wat the.. o.O" Saw alot of ppL.. reeali miSs them sOoo muChie.. hmm.. then went lot1 wif fen, 2 jieying, mabia, tingni n siew ling n ate at pizzahut.. then went to watch "drink drank drunk".. a chinese comedy.. itz kinda touching as well.. i cried.. heheh.. the male actor very shuai!! *heez* after tt, me, fen and mabia went to kbox.. haha.. very fun.. n hyper.. haha.. muz go again after promos!! i dun care..=D

sumtimes, i reali find life so unfair.. but fortunately, there are always ppl whu cares=)

280805

Oh wells.. todae, i tried to find back the old me.. i went back to the very place tt i once used to go alone.. yup.. alone.. but haiz.. still.. i crashed into the very person tt i din wana see together wif his gurl.. nt tt i hate tt person or anething.. juz tt i m scared tt i mite break down again.. I m trying very hard.. to forget everything n all.. but still nth seems to work fer me.. i m so so so tired.. Juz now minghong msged me to ask me get back up on my feet n stay strong.. true enuff.. i shldnt run awae frm stuffs.. i m trying.. n i m tired already.. I noe i kip saying tt i m alright now.. n behaving as though nth has happened.. but duno y i still care.. Ster, i m sorry.. i juz cant seem to let go of this.. =/ haiz.. y am i letting this affect me so much? this is juz so shitty=S

oh wells.. saddening case no 2. juz saw suhui's msg nt long ago.. She has withdrawn frm pj ler.. haiz.. another fren whu understands me is gone.. haiz.. Well.. but she seemed kinda happy abt it.. so.. i guess.. i shld b hapi fer her as well? Suhui.. u gona b hapi.. n rmb, no matter wat u do, think carefully..=)

oh yar.. todae.. received ster's msges.. kip thanking me fer the card.. haha.. ster.. wat're frenz fer? i m juz glad tt u are hapi.. hmm.. tml gona spend wif whu wor? haha.. wan me help u ask *emmhmm*? haha hmm.. well wish u an early happi bdae darLing=D

Recently, i m beginning to feel the promos' stress becuz of the ppl ard me.. but still me.. you xin wu li lidat.. Juz cant seem to get in the mood of studying.. this is juz so nt fair! Why am i suffering the consequence of sth tt i did nt do? haiz.. maeb itz all my stupid fault bahx.. i duno.. the other dae.. neSsa told me sth.. tt gt me real confused.. tt dae, i wus supposed to haf a photo taking session.. but ended up i cldnt smile at all.. i cldnt even fake a smile.. fer the whole dae, i cldnt conc.. everything juz sux lah..

i juz wana b hapi.. is tt too much to ask fer?

memOrabLe dae --- 240805

heheh.. Ysd wus oni a memorable dae.. haha.. ysd wus my gd gd fren eileen's bdae.. Went wif von, liyi, n eileen to kbox... haha.. fun FUN FUN!! haha.. liyi sing song very nice.. so sweet.. von n eileen very hyper.. me oso very hyper.. we ended our session wif our fav song.. haha.. n we were jumping up n down.. haha.. so fun.. haha.. long time nv enjoy myself so much ler..=D muz go again sumdae.. heheh.. after promos, it shall be..

oh wells.. todae wus pretty ok.. kinda tired fer the whole dae.. tink ysd hyper too much ler.. ended up very exhausted.. haha.. hmm.. after sch, went shopping wif yvonne.. heheh.. bought lotsa nice nice stuffs..=D tml i gt a bigbig duty to carry out.. heheh.. =Pp oh wells.. tml gt maths quiz.. haha.. dun feel lyke studying.. haha.. oh wells.. tml going out wif vON!! haha.. looking forward to it.. heez.. me reali veri slack.. tsktsktsk.. gd luck to me..

mE gtg ler.. oh yarh.. muz wish my beloved brO.. HAPI BURFDAE bOi! hope u n ur darLing can quickquick b tGr..=D

200805

Heez.. Wanted to blog ysd de.. but when i reached hm, i wus so damn tired.. then i went slp early.. so nan de.. heheh.. oh wells.. ysd wus quite a nice dae bahx.. hMm.. i went sch wid irene then check out the hse games.. haha.. saw *emmhmm* name ther.. haha.. oh wells.. todae is the games.. but then hor.. me too piggy ler.. cldnt wake up early in the morn.. sheesh.. sho sad..=/

then.. i spent my breaktimes in sch wid fiona n peta.. had a wunderful lunch wif them.. then help fiona wif her econs.. i wusnt reali much of a help i tink.. haha.. hmm.. oh wells.. had a very exciting panel discussion during gp.. haha.. luff until my stomach almoz canot take it.. *wahahaha*

After gp.. me n von stayed back.. chatted wif ms lee.. fer a long long time.. then ms kat came n exclaimed " i din noe yvonne n jiaxin can b so talkative!" den both of them started toking abt how quiet we are in klass.. mE quiet?!?! haha.. ttz a big joke lorh.. oh wells.. then after 3 hrs of chatting, me n von finali headed fer cck stadium.. haha.. we were going crazy on the wae.. n took the wrong bus.. haha.. when we finali gt on the correct bus.. we felt so relieved n we started singing on the bus.. haha.. but when we arrived.. haha.. the place wus closed.. so we ended up sitting down..eating n singing at the same time.. haha..=D so fuN!!

Gona go out sOon.. haha.. i wana b hapi!!

180805

hMm.. todae wus practically a "OK" dae.. haha.. nth much bahx.. let me recall.. hmm.. ysd.. wus kinda in a foul mood.. thus i din haf the mood to blog.. oh wells.. ysd had a supposedly cca "miting".. Can u believe it? A miting held fer less than 3 mins.. whoa.. i tink the president can go fer the guiness bk of records ler.. hah.. Sory fer the sarcasm.. oh wells.. ysd went to tok to my geog teacher.. heard tt ther is another club setting up this yr end.. she is attaching me to it.. fer the projs.. hmm.. but i m tinking of going ova.. cuz the present club i m in.. is going to collapse sooner or later wid such a "WUNDERFUL" president.. hah.. so yar.. anewae.. i haf confidence tt i will make the new club a beta n definitely more successful one.. haha.. always having so much overwhelming confidence.. haha..*bleah*

Okay.. enuff of the sarcasm.. hmm.. todae went sch.. haha.. me n von were going crazy fer the whole dae.. toking abt "superstar"show.. haha.. junyang reaLi very shuai n cute.. oh gosh.. heez.. oh yar..todae.. had debate.. haha.. long awaited one.. haha.. oh wells.. it wus horrible.. i tink i did badly.. haha.. haish.. anewae my team lost.. "due to unconvincing n lack of points".. oh wells.. it wus definitely crappy.. i din even understand wat i wus toking abt.. n i wus kinda trembling.. Din tink i wld let my stage fright get to me again.. Oh wells.. todae met suhui.. she is dropping out of pj ler.. haish.. one less fren around.. very saddening.. so discouraging.. ppl ard me are giving up so faz.. haiz..but nevertheless.. i will try my best.. n nt let anething affect me again..

hmm.. the dae before ysd.. tok to cow.. haiz.. sorry cow.. I juz realised tt no matter wat.. rite now i juz cant giv up.. n leave him in the lurch.. true.. i cant help much.. he wun listen.. but itz nv in my intention to see him down n out.. it hurts.. i will try.. fer as long as i can.. to do as much as i can.. but i will nv giv up either.. =/ haiz.. sorry cOw~ u gotta take gd care of ur health k? rest more pls??

oh wells.. gotta go touch up on my EOM ler.. then go watch jue dui superstar.. haha.. hopefully jUnyaNg will get in.. *wish hard* he iSh sOo shUai!! *heheh* tata~

another "craBby" entry.. >.<

haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish... *long long sigh* these arent sighs of relief.. if oni they are.. haish.. I always tell them nt to sigh too much.. very bad fer health.. will die faster de.. hah.. i tink i m dying soon den.. Been sighing alot recently.. =( haish.. bu dui wor..=S *sheesh*

Seriously speaking.. I reali cant get used to this stupid life of mine.. itz lyke.. nth ever goes well fer me.. Fer those whu are close to me.. you all shld noe.. haiz.. why huh? Do i reali deserve such a life? Made lotsa wrong decisions.. thus worsening the situation of my life.. haiz.. Now here i m in the arts stream.. when i truly belong to the sciences.. hah.. how stupid can i b? I still rmb.. after the o lvls.. i swore to sum of my frenz tt unless i m dead, i wun take ane more arts subjs in the future.. hah.. but yet, being rash n stupid.. i made the decision fer sumone.. n ended up me suffering the consequence.. How dumb can i be? hah.. Sumhow.. i can nv becum lyke the typical arts students.. nt even close.. hah.. i juz cant adapt.. itz the air that surrounds them tt kinda made me feel lyke avoiding.. Orite.. no matter wat.. ther is still sum beautiful souls in the arts stream.. nevertheless.. but itz oni "SUM".. i can even count them wif my fingers.. my klassmates are part of them of cuz.. =D heez.. i miSs the science stream.. ppl ther are more sociable.. more sensible.. more friendly.. more lovable.. at the very least.. they dun tok wif the same sarcasm n bitchy-ness as sum arts students does.. haiz.. juz wish tt.. i wun becum lidat.. i DUN WAN!! hah..

Juz now toking to junhaO.. nw kinda feeling beta ler.. itz great frenz lyke him whu kip me persisting on in my life.. great frenz whu motivate.. whu cares..=) thanks ppLz..=D

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Sheesh.. todae is supposed to b a short n hapi dae de... But cuz ysd i din slp well again.. ended up being very slpy in sch.. haish.. oh wells.. let's start off toking abt todae first.. hmm.. had netball during PE.. heheh.. damn fun lorh.. but kip crashing into helmi n clement.. very sweaty!! haha.. oh wells.. it wus great fun.. long time nv play netball ler.. =/ hmm.. had gp compre test todae.. tough.. cldnt conc again.. haiz.. oh wells.. guess i wld juz flunk it badly.. =( haish..

Orite.. haiz.. things haf been happening so faz tt i cant stop or prevent it.. shucks.. this sux.. ysd nessa showed me sumthing in sch.. kinda shocked me very badly.. then i went hm to cry.. Why am i crying again?! haiz.. stupid lah.. itz none of my business anemore.. why shld i even care? why?!?! cow ish rite.. i m dumb.. i m stupid.. haiz.. guess i m too softhearted ler? i duno.. it juz hurts to see things becum lidat.. all i wan is fer him to b hapi.. but yet.. i cant help now..=(

oh wells.. juz now before i left sch.. nessa wus toking to me.. i juz kinda started tearing again.. den cindy walked past.. n asked "whu bullied u? tellme! damnit!" she nearly made me burst into tears on the spot..haiz.. oh wells.. shldnt tink so much ler.. i m tired.. reali tired.. all i can do ish juz pray fer him.. =/

140805

hmm.. first of all.. muz wish my gd gd fren yvonne "hapi bdae".. hmm.. oh wells.. this morn i woke up damn early.. cuz ster asked me to mit her at 920.. I din slp much ysd.. my back hurts badly.. cuz of the sunburnt.. very painful norh.. can die..=( oh wells.. met annas on the wae to the mrt station.. he wus on his wae fer floorball training.. soo sporty.. haha.. well.. me hao bu rong yi made it on time.. oni to find tt ster overslept..*abish* well.. then.. me went lib mit hong.. haha.. then when ster came.. we all started mugging.. haha.. me.. juz kinda slacked.. reali no mood norh..=( oh yarh ya wen came to join us cuz her frenz were so damn noisy..

during lunch.. we went to take neoprints.. haha.. very very very very nice.. haha.. =D muz frame it up.. haha.. nxt time muz take more!! oh yarh.. then suz outside the lib, gt the marie france bodyline roadshow.. yawen initiated tt we go fer the free fat analysis.. haha.. n so we went..wus in marie france bodyline waiting fer our consultant.. then me took hong's phone n started taking pics again.. haha.. wo hen zi lian sia..=Pp geez.. oh wells.. the analysis is tt i m underweight but i haf gt fats! haha.. wOo~ haha.. i m nt thin.. haha.. =Pp oh wells.. muz build more muscles.. haha..=D todae had lotsa fun!! haha.. =)

oh wells.. me go watch tv liao.. take caree pplz.. =)

130805 *sunburnt*

heyhey.. nth to do.. juz felt lyke blogging.. haha.. oh wells.. ysd slpt kinda late.. but i woke up kinda early todae.. haha.. so nt lyke me.. Used to pig out till late afternoon de.. haha.. Well.. then me went to the swimming pool wif sis.. Now kena sunburnt badly.. *ouch ouch* sheesh.. shldnt haf stayed so long.. but it wus great great fun.. heheh.. oh wells.. though i din do ane studying todae.. but i had fun.. so whu cares? =Pp *bleah*

hMm.. less than two mths to promos ler.. hmm.. or rather to b more specific.. 46 more daes to my promos exams.. haha.. time reali flies manx.. oh wells.. hopefully, i can get pass it safely bahx.. let's hope tt my results allow me to stay bahx.. ysd, my civic tutor asked us to set our targets.. heheh.. i tink i m kinda crazy de.. me wrote dwn.. A fer maths.. B fer geog.. B fer econs.. A1 fer chinese.. B4 fer GP.. almoz impossible.. mE always drming of the impossible.. lolz..

oh weLLs.. tml gona start TRYing muggin ler.. haha.. reali hafta try.. =) gd luCk to me..=) ppL.. muz study hard too.. n take care of ur health=)

120805

Heheh.. finali it iSh fridae ler.. Waited sho long long.. haha.. Todae ish a stupid dae.. Ysd, or rather this morn.. i slpt at 1 am.. Wus watching the release of results for Superstar.. haha.. hell lorh.. i wus crying awae.. haha.. though i dun reali tink derrick has the potential.. but see him cry.. i oso cry.. very sad fer him.. haish.. he is cute lah=) haha.. ended up nt doing my gP portfolio.. heheh.. slackerish attitude.. *bleah*

Oh wells.. todae i very blur lorh.. haha.. forgot my specs.. Wus so blind fer the whole dae.. haha.. assembly sux totally.. we hafta "learn" writing testimonials.. haha.. so stupid.. hmm.. well.. gp wus fun.. the debate wus an eye-opener.. haha.. hMm.. after sCh, went stadiUm to run again.. haha.. timing improved alittle.. but still nt enuff.. i m still training hard.. oh wells.. itz tough.. haha.. after tt, went swimming pool wid ster n hong.. haha.. nearly drown as usual.. haha.. Wus lying in the pool n chatting wif ster.. haiz.. reali miss the past.. the worries-less sec life.. the freedom n happiness i had..oh yar..no shuaiges ther again..hai ster so sad.. haha.. Den me went sports hall.. trying to look fer my bro.. but cuz i wus half blind.. haha.. cldnt spot him among the many badminton players.. heheh.. *sheesh*

oh wells.. tml going drowning again.. haha.. no lah.. juz wana sun tan.. haha.. as though i nt dark enuff>,< take lotsa care pplz~ i misS eUu all='(

120805

todae start sch after quite long a break.. Cldnt reali get in the mood of studying manx.. sheesh.. oh wells.. Wus feeling damn slpy fer the whole dae basically cuz i din slp well ysd.. duno why.. juz cldnt get to slp=( *sobx* lessons were basically okay on the whole.. but my eyes juz refused to kip open from time to time..=/ haish

well.. todae i gt back my chinese common test.. Got the highest in klass.. well.. alittle elated.. but still nt satisfied.. my compre i did quite badly.. wus so disappointed in myself.. haiz.. n i din even put in my best lorh.. i din bother to study.. now quite regret..=( sheesh.. Slacked during Gp lesson.. wus busy munching awae.. lolz.. todae wus a long long dae.. nearly cldnt laz manx..well.. here i m at hm.. gona get started on my gp portfolio n stuffs.. dun tink i nidda slp tonite ler.. sheesh.. bad luck seh.. whu asked me to b borned a slacker? heehe..sian.. oh weells.. tml going out wif ster.. woots~ looking forward seh..=D haha

Me change song also.. heeheh.. my fav.. twinkle twinkle little star.. ~

*baCk! baCk!*

mE baCk! me baCk! haha.. me changed my layout ler.. finali!! nice mahx? haha.. i m starting on a new life.. new beginnings.. heez.. yar.. matt.. new frenships too.. *winkx* Time reali flies w/o us realising it.. Though time seems draggy n torturous when we are faced wif unhappiness n hardships.. but nevertheless.. when we look back, we wld realise tt time passes real fast.. Oh wells.. my resolution is to cherish all the gd times.. n live my life to the fullest=D

heheh.. wells.. ySd watChed tHe nDp on the net.. hmm.. different feelings this yr.. kinda overwhelmed wid different emotions.. last yr.. i had feelings of happiness n joy.. this yr.. i felt hapi in a different context.. i felt hapi tt i managed to stay alive thru the struggles of life tt i haf.. i felt hapi tt i still haf frenz whu reali care.. i felt hapi tt a yr has passed.. though things are different now.. but at the same time, i believe tt i gona b happier soon..=D

Hmm.. oh well.. the same old jiaxin ish back.. haha.. gona b more cheery =D hmm.. oh yar.. gona congrat zeS.. haha.. finali settling down ler.. heheh.. muz jiayou worx.. i wana see her sOon! haha.. kampate!=)

Oh yar.. this paragraph is dedicated to Raine..my dear pretty fren cum counsellor.. Hmm.. i reali hope tt u haf tot things thru seriously before making tt decision.. reali no regrets? hmm.. itz gona b hard to let go of things.. i understand.. but no matter wat.. i wish u all the best in all tt you do.. Haf faith, my dear gurl.. N rmb to b hapi n smiling always.. take care~ =) Jiayou worx.. =)

Oh wells.. ster darLing bu shuang ler.. i muz go do my hwk before she blows up.. haha.. buaiz ppL~ Will update as often as i can..=) tata~

*high high high.. up in the sky.. =D*

Here i am.. blogging again.. haha.. emm.. itz kinda pitch dark outside.. cant see wher i m.. heheh.. well.. i m still on my wae.. ard 7 more hrs to go.. Sheesh.. maeb lata i will take my nap.. haha.. Oh wells.. juz now finished reading one novel.. haha.. Juz kinda too bored ler mahx.. Lolz.. Well.. the novel reminded me of lotsa things.. =/

hmm.. gt one typical... old fashioned qn... which i pondered abt cuz i wus reali too BORED here.. "If tml is the end of world..wat wld u do? Or how wld u spend ur last dae?" Hmm.. if tml is my last dae alive.. well.. most ppl wld spend it wif their loved ones.. haha.. for me.. haha.. wif my great frenz bahx.. haha.. they are the ppl i loved most rite nw.. heez.. =D Oh wells.. juz now tot of minglin.. esp wat she used to sae abt me.. sheesh.. after so many things tt happened.. i m kinda slowly..very slowly.. finding back my old self.. lyke wat mL said.. i used to b "a people's person".. yea.. i tink i m going back to tt ler.. no longer the selfish me.. whu oni cares blindly abt sumone whu dun even deserve it.. soRy frenz.. wellwell.. i duno lah.. now trying nt to tink so much ler.. I juz wana change.. haha.. change back to a nicer "people's person".. sumone whu is always ther for my frenz.. haha.. Gona b stronger.. n more independent.. n better in everything i do.. as for other things.. haha.. heck lah..

Oh wells.. hopefully everything goes well for me frm nw on.. =) i'll survive no matter wat.. *anewae matt.. frenships laz longer than anething.. though i m still considering.. haha.. wish me luck*

National Dae ceLebratiOn =)

hey.. todae wus the national dae celebration.. Met von n sharmi to go sch tgr.. hmm.. reached sch.. lyke enter poly lidat.. oni tt everyone wus wearing a standardised red top.. haha.. hmm.. well.. the ceremony wus okay lah.. juz alittle gitch sumwher.. haha.. hmm.. then celebration performances were great.. esp the old folks.. haha.. so cute.. ka wa ii neh..>.< then.. me n evon n fiona *the three musketeers of pae 05S10* were going crazy singing.. wif the council n band ppl at the back of the hall.. so fun!! wOot~ haha.. so damn hyper.. heez.. whu cares abt wat ppl think? haha.. oh wells.. me hapi jiu hao rite?=D

Hmm.. me will b gone.. for 72 hrs.. haha.. but i borrowed my cousin's laptop.. so i will b online still...heheh.. ster.. dun miss me too much ya? haha.. take care..=D oh wells.. gotta rush liao.. Bb~ take care pPl..=P

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Juz reached home nt long ago.. Heheh.. Todae woke up quite late.. First ting i called up ster darLing.. oNi to realise tt PIG wus still in bed *abish* hmm.. Well.. then mE went to ster darLing's place to study for the whole afternOon.. haha.. wad a fruitful dae! hmm.. crapped alot..ate alot.. gosh..i m growing fatter ler.. haha.. hmm.. then i realised one thing when i went to her bedroom.. i wus so damn shocked! My eyes were practically popping out! Gosh! i saw my sec two pic.. the one i took wif my gd fren zhili.. IN THE TOILET.. haha.. n i wus wearing my nerdy specs.. wah liew.. sO funnIe lorh.. shEesh.. ster.. can i beg u to take it off ur desk? sheesh.. itz sOo ugLy.. haha..@@

Oh wells.. tml ish national dae celebration.. then supposed to b smart n casual dae de.. end up MUZ wear RED shirt.. diaoz.. sian.. sheesh.. hmm.. feel lyke going back bp for the celebration.. but lyke no one is going back lidat.. haiz.. sian diao.. alright..hopefully tml is a nice nice dae.. =) happie national dae ppL=)

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Wayhey.. it iSh..emm.. 11 plus now.. haha..Kinda late.. Normally, i wld be snoozing in bed norh.. todae special heheh.. haha.. Actuali kinda slpy ler.. but me stubborn.. i dun care.. Juz wana blog before i go orh orh.. heez..

Oh wells.. this morn.. i woke up damn early go mit minglin darLing.. haha.. she wus late.. *abish* hmm.. then me pei her go sch.. oni halfwae cuz i gona b late for sch ler mahx.. haha.. *bleah* oh yar.. minglin darling going camp todae.. wish her all the best.. muz haf fun wor=D Then me met joan.. crap all the wae to sch.. miss her so much.. =(

I wus practically very slpy for the whole dae.. So Soo soOo tired.. haish.. Cldnt conc at all.. *sheesh* Took my chinese test todae.. kinda stressed out lorh.. first time i so panicky for chinese.. gosh.. it wus tough.. =/ GP test neh.. i wrote crap.. tink totally out of pt ler.. but heck lah.. *bleah*

After sch.. me rushed to cwp to mit ster darLing.. haha.. Wus supposed to go swimming de.. but ended up i feel lyke running.. so we went to the stadium instead.. oh wells.. i realised how much i miss the tracks.. haha.. crap.. Hmm ster very lazy lah.. slow jog wif me one rd then slack ler.. haish.. me ran 400 metres.. n timed myself three times.. haish.. timing wus SUCKY!! i aimed for 1min15s de.. end up.. heheh.. i ran 1 min 55 s.. diao.. throw face..=( haish.. muz train hard ler.. muz get back into condition.. haha.. We slacked ard the stadium.. watch the wdlz wellingtons *tink spell wrongly* train.. haha.. their jerseys v striking! haha.. i lyke the color *wootz* then i saw these two indians doing 400metres too.. oh man.. they ran damn fast lorh.. within 1 min leh.. i wus so shocked.. @@ *dazed* cOol lorh.. i aim to b lyke them.. haha.. noNo.. nt as black..*oops* juz the speed.. heheh..=D

Finished slacking at the stadium.. me n ster went to the swimming complex to slack again.. haha.. nO shuaiges ther todae.. very little ppl.. tink cuz of the hungry ghosts festival bahx.. hmm.. well.. got acquainted wif this chiobu coach.. she reali very chIo.. no kidding.. =) hmm.. slacked ard..ate cup noodles for dinner.. kinda pathetic.. haha.. but nvm.. hmm.. well.. chitchat awhile.. me started tearing.. sian.. my tear glands duno why over active de -__-" haish.. maeb i shldnt tink back too much.. *sheesh* Duno lah.. haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. stupid me!

well.. Juz now wus reading thru the precious moment bk tt ish owned by me n minglin darling.. started crying again.. the entries.. reminded me of alot of things.. sheesh.. why things turn out this way? i dun get it.. i still dun.. Isit reali cuz of wat my frenz think? i dunO.. perhaps.. it's beta for me nt to know? i m juz.. confused.. well.. i miss sec life.. life is so much happier n lively then.. but now? things are so different.. sumtimes.. i even tot tt i mite juz collapse.. the tot is enuff to giv me shivers.. haish.. hopefully.. i wun.. nt nw.. =/

Oh wells.. i haf crapped enuff ler.. reali tired after all those running.. gtg ler.. BUaiz..~

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Hmm.. todae went sch.. I m still sick lah.. Haiz.. Sorry to haf made so many ppl worried.. Haiz.. I oso wana quickquick recover.. Sick very tongku.. Orite.. todae supposed to mit ster dear de.. but her muMmie dun let her cum out.. so sad.. sO long nV see her ler..=/

Oh wells.. Todae gt two tests.. Geog open bk.. kinda easy bahx.. I do finish.. then fell aslp.. reali very drowsy.. tired sia.. duNo why lidat.. then econs pretty okay lah.. i wus amazed at myself for being able to write sumthing out.. haha So nt lyke me..=/ Hmm todae got back geog tests.. So hapi ~lalala.. I scored nt too bad for sumone whu din study at all.. so hapi.. heheh..

emM.. muz apologise to vanessa.. n celest.. sorry gurLz.. i reali juz very tired.. i m kinda ok now.. dun wory for me ler.. i gona fine sOon..=) hmm i miss being hapi..=/ *sheesh* Miss alot of ppL tOo.. haiz.. *mogu!! wedding crashers out ler.. when go watch tgr?*

alright.. matt.. i m tinking hard abt wat u sae wor! haha.. emm.. emm.. *blush* okay.. ppL take care of ur health.. gDluCk for ur tests n exams=) ~tata

baCk tO scH ~lalala

I went to back to sCh todae.. after twO whOle daes of "holidaes".. Well.. Still kinda sick, but i forced myself to go sch nevertheless. Sheesh.. i m always so stubborn. Din reali slp well ysd. Duno y oso. hais. First thing went sch, went find darling celest. n ShaOfen to pass them their letters n stuffs. hmm.. then received lotsa greetings of concerns frm frenz.. *so touched* hmm i reali miss sch i guess.. emm.. oni the ppL.. nt the lesSons part.. Lolz.. haha.. todae.. we were slacking during Pw lesson.. played murderer.. lOlz..

oH yar.. Muz haf sum special mention for the people whu made my dae todae=D Hmm first n most imptly.. the PRF.. consisting of peiling.. suxian.. florence.. Liyi n Eileen.. thanks for ur card.. Reali very gan dong.. *hurhur* thanks for caring so much for me.. heez.. thanks for being ther for me=) Nxt.. emm eugene made my dae too.. haha.. he wus lyke "ehh jiaxin.. u okay ornt? If gt anething muz tell me.. i help u settle.. aneone bully u tell me.. i gt my brothers settle.. blahblahblah.." very funnie.. haha.. well at least i noe.. my frenz care..=)

Well.. todae gt back results.. haish.. disappointing.. i gt B for maths.. C for econs B for Geog.. B4 for chinese E8 for Gp.. reali saddening lorh.. haish.. but whu to blame but myself? haha.. i haven been studying anewae.. been slacking all along.. haiz.. wat to do? reali mOodlEss..=(

Got sumthing to apologise.. sorry pPl.. i m nt returning to the bP table..emm at least nt for the time being.. i juz dun wana make things awkward.. or rather be treated lyke i m invisible.. soRy..=/ Gotta go now.. buaiZ~

HAPI BDAE ZIN=D *haha* u are ONE year OLDER ler.. muz learn to act ur age wor.. =Pp hmm.. Dun stress too muCh.. life iSh tOo shOrt foR unNeccEsSary uNhapIneSs..=) takE carE=)

Stuck at hOmE~*haish*

haish.. i m still half blind seh.. >.<>

Oh wells.. laz nite chatted wif matt.. Had a reali NICE chat.. haha.. yea.. I miSs eUU matt..=D hmm.. well.. matt arh.. i haf tot abt wat u said ysd.. haha.. well.. seriously.. i duno lah.. me oso SHY mahx.. =X *sheesh* haha.. pPl iSh gOd.. me is onI ordinary plain oLd mE.. heez.. let's juz wait n see k? emm.. maeb.. maeb.. i mite take the initiative afterall.. haha.. it all depends lah..=D But then again.. i duno wher to start.. haha..=Pp Mite nid ur help still.. hMmz.. hope u are doing fine in aCjC.. how's ur fan club? haha.. muz update me sOon k?

Hmm.. this sat i organising iceskating.. i nid groups of four each in order to get unlimited skating time.. Hey peeps.. if u are interested, inform me before 12 midnite on fri.. haha=Pp hmm.. hope tt i can b fine by tml.. haish.. feel lyke resting forever...=/

siCk *sobx*

*sobx* I m soo sick.. Juz woke up frm my nap.. Haiz.. kena severe eye infection.. now see things very blur.. Even so, haha.. i m still online.. I m stubborn, i noe.. But whu will care? haha.. there is simply no one whu reali cares now.. =/ Being sick ish definitely a sad thing.. feeling weak all ova.. n unable to accomplished ane work.. All i can do is to slp n slp n slp.. o.O" N wat's worse? i m being stuck at hm for two whole daes. Hopefully, i will be fine tml.. I wana be back in sch.. Heard tt todae's chinese test wus tough? haha.. i dun reali care..

Juz now.. lying in bed.. i tot of lotsa things.. juz feel lyke penning it down here.. hmm.. Well.. i realised sth.. Watever NEGATIVE guesses or wishes i made always cum true.. Hmm.. three mths ago.. i guessed tt he wus twotiming me.. n BINGO! i even gt the gurl right. N, recently.. i wus chatting wif my fren ova the phone.. n i wus so pissed abt seeing tt eyesore in sch.. so i juz merely said tt i wished i wus blind.. n hey.. i m half blind now.. cant reali see clearly.. Shucks.. wat's next? Maeb.. it's all juz mere coincidence.. i duno.. *shrugs* i haf told sum of my frenz abt my guesses.. now.. we shall wait n see.. I juz dun haf a gd feeling.. i reali dun wan it to cum true..=/

Alright.. i oso tot of organising a chalet wif my gd gd gd gd gd gd gd GOOD frenz rite after promos.. But then.. i wus nv a gd organiser.. haha.. i will try nevertheless.. but i m afraid i mite not get gd responses.. Well.. i m leaving soon.. haha.. Nt reali tt hapi abt leaving anewae.. true.. wo already si xin ler.. but then.. i m still worried.. =/ hmm.. well.. dun care so much ler.. Sorry ster.. i din wana let u noe when i m leaving.. haha.. u noe how much i hate farewells.. =/ hmm.. i will be back de mahx.. haha.. i m letting my promos decide eventually.. hah..

Been thinking alot recently.. Life is reali reali short.. n good memories are worth more than the bad ones.. i wana create good memories.. heez.. hmm.. i still haf lots yet to accomplish.. Once i recover.. i will get back on the tracks n train my running again.. i haf slacked totally after those disappointments.. hmm.. n i gona take up new sports.. n master everything.. haha.. sounds so dreamy.. hmm.. well.. i will try nevertheless.. N for my promos.. i duno.. i will try hard.. triple As sounds very much lyke a dream.. but i will try.. but if i cant make it.. forgiv me.. i juz hafta leave.. *Sory ster* Wish me luck bahx..heh..

Sian.. my eyes reali jialat.. gotta go rest liao.. buaiz ppLe.. takecare~ Promos are cuming .. take care of ur health.. jiayoux=D